And then shit hits the fan...

[CRASH]

I really Like beer. So much so that I've given up many a nights of dignity and integrity for it..Gave alot of regret for it too.

Still, I began counting my blessings for NOT using. I don't feel as bloated, my psoriasis is under control and I can wear shorts, more money, less out bursts,etc. the lists goes on and on.

I wish I could say that I am done with alcohol. The fact is, I recently fell off the wagon ( for about four weeks)..It's a life time process. I can never allow one..it ends to 12 a night. I wish I could have a beer...I can't.. I ruined it for myself.

What do you do when you fall off? get the fk back on.

I'm still nicotine free and I'm very very proud over that. looking back I remember that it took numerous attempts for that too. I won't be cutting my wrist over it. It's one of those things I need to tighten up some more.

If your into prayer, say one for me too.